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InsecureI'm not comfortable
I'm not comfortable about myself
Shy and insecure
I shy away from people
Hiding in shame
I wish I would disappear
And never be seen again
But,I can't
I'm going to be like this all my life
These scars I have should never be revealed
I'm insecure
And not proud.

Mirror WithinMirror, Mirror
On the wall
Why do you show me a stranger?
Is she in danger?
She sits there crying...
Is she dieing?
The shadowed curtains fall
Only do I see my own reflection...

Mirror, Mirror
On the wall
I call for her
Is she in danger?
She only sits there
Blank grey slates stare through red locks of hair...
I feel my heart fall
She blinks and my reflection gazes back at me...

Mirror, Mirror
On the wall
Show me a sweet stranger,
Is she in danger?
Sitting on a swing set
In the middle of an abondoned playground
Have we met?
Silent without sound, I look around...
Glass and frame melt away...
"Sad sweet stranger" I say,

Endless oceanMy heart is like an endless ocean
It's waters restless and deep
And I feel just like a tiny boat
Struggling a course to keep

One moment the waters are raging
The pain and the hurt like a storm
The next the sky is calm and blue
And the ocean still and warm

Beneath the surface memories echo
Each one determined to rise
And with every determined break
White horses bring pain and sighs

My heart is like an endless ocean
The feelings deep and strong
I never used to be like this
Is something going wrong?

My heart is full of a thousand dreams
And a thousand nightmares too
How long can any soul survive
The turmoil I'm going through

I Want Your LlamasI'm a spectator on the sidelines, watching all the news
Keeping track of the differing of individual views
It very entertaining, a full cyber-society
Separated into categories, spread out before me.

Heading to photography, looking for inspiration now
Some visual queue that I can turn into words somehow
Flipping back to literature, caught on every word
Horror, sex, and some comedy that borders on absurd

Perhaps the digital art section will have just what I need
Some fantasy image that will appeal to me
Spark the thoughts inside my head and a story comes to life
Perhaps a poetic epic, filled with blood and strife.

But then I got dis

Doubts ThornsThorns of doubt,
Reaching out.
Pulling me down,
Making me their own.

Determination falters,
Like a sacrifice at the alter.
The pursuit seemed so right,
Now an inner fight.

Hope drowned in confusion,
A bitter infusion,
Of meandering thought,
In what trap am I caught?

Insecure girl and the mirrorInsecure girl and the mirror

she looks in the mirror
She sees the insecure girl
Trying to be beautiful
All hope is lost in this girl
Trying to make it all right again
Or at least look better to this broken, cracked mirror
She tries to change every thing, to make the mirror think of her as a pretty girl again
She changes her hair
To try to look like someone else
Anyone but her, she whispers
Puts on makeup,
Thinking it'd make a difference
But what difference?
Puts on different clothes
Clothes that are more in style but they never work
That insecure chubby girl is still under them
Nothing hides the fact that she is chubby

Securely InsecureThings inside of me.
I believe that this is not what it's meant to be.
And I'm securing my insecurities.
And I know I'll never be free.
Wanted this much, wanted that much.
Wanted nothing and more.
So how can I say that I need this?
I NEED THIS.
Say it's great and say it's ok.
I'm securely insecure.
And I've never been so sure.
I'm so purely un-pure.
I wanted more and more.
I'm sorry I didn't leave- I kept you awake.
And I'm talking crazy again.
And I always want to stay.
When's the next time I'll see this for you?
And I still feel the same.
Just as I am. Pushing you away.
This numbness inside.
I don't want to feel welcome

insecurei don't know why you feel the way you do
feeling that your life is so insecure
not able to make your feelings known
but here's something you ought to know

think of me when your feeling down,
especially when you feel blue and frown
remember that i was, am, will and
always be here, though you cannot see
that i'm here for you
waiting just for only you

try to think of me and smile
remember there's my number you can dial
no matter in which country bound
i would love to hear the way you sound.

insecurei'm feeling so insecure
about the way i look
about the way i feel
i can't stop and open my eyes
the image in the mirror is real
i don't feel like myself
it can't be true
i won't believe what i see
it comes naturally

look at me
what i feel
don't like
what i see
i want to change not rearrange
who i am what i'll be
so insecure for me

people say your fine no need to worry
but those images of those figures (keep putting me down)
in the back of my mind
way down behind, i think about myself my pride
but i can't help the way i feel
down goes my selfesteem
but i know its all real

look at me
what i feel
what i see
i want to c

InsecureWhy is it I have to shield myself?
Be so insecure.
Why can't I just show myself,
The person I see as pure.

If I was a house
I would have no windows, no doors.
My roof would be unbreakable
And steel would be my walls.

I hide from you
But hide I can't.
You see me being trapped.

If only I could wake up
And face the facts,
Know to go forward
I have to give up the act.

I feel that being insecure
Will keep me from being hurt.

I sit and wait for a moment
A moment where I won' be judged.
But if I wait to long
I will miss the chance to be loved.

InsecurityI've always wished that I could fly,
Leave my troubles and worries,
to soar through the sky.

That I could stand up to those I despise,
Wished for courage,
so I could stare straight into their eyes.

I've always wished that my thoughts weren't so smart,
That maybe instead of thinking rationally,
I could follow my heart.

I've always wished that I was something more,
Someone that was perfect,
that others would adore.

I've always wished I wasn't me,
but after careful thought I've realized;
there isn't anyone else I could stand to be.

insecureAnother night messed up
words stuck in my troat
make me feel sick
and its getting hard to breathe

restless, all adrenaline..
My heart feels like it want to explode
fear-rush, shivering loneliness..
and the only way to calm down is
the most painfull way to make smoothing endorphine..
after all..pain can be my friend

Another day messed up...
movies in my head.. non stop repeating
Fiction is my reality
making its own truth...believable

It is not that i don't trust you..
It is not that i want to be this way
it is not that i want to mess up mine, or your,
night or day..
I am just afraid..
scared to death...

How long will it ta

InsecureI can't help but feel insecure,
I don't want to feel this way anymore,
I don't want to be here,
I just want everything to be clear.

I'm tired of it being like before,
I don't want it like that anymore,
When will I be gone,
Cause I don't think I can go on,

I have so much regret,
And I just want to be able to forget,
I have so many fears,
And sometimes I can't help but shed my tears.

I wish everyone could see,
What is deep down inside of me,
I wish I could not feel anymore,
But I can't help but feel so insecure.

InsecureFirst time I was scared to death,
Tried to do what everyone said
hang on, hang on.
Never let it get you down,
Just stay strong keep both feet on
The ground, somehow.

But they don't know what i'm really going through,
Afraid to tell anyone the truth.

For prejudice happens all the time,
We get rated while we're waiting in a line.
Don't care about them but their comments hurt,
I get smaller when they grow, i'm insecure.

Bigger person I should be,
Shouldn't let them get to me
Be strong, be strong.
But 1+1 equals 2,
Too much pressure makes the wall
Fall down, for now.

But i'll show the words were never true,
I'm stronger then t

Cruel fateWhy are the hands of fate so cruel
The tides of fortune heartless
How much pain can one life hold
Before a soul succumbs to darkness

Why are the hands of fate so cruel
To curse a life with bitter blows
To break a heart and watch it mend
So more sorrow still they can bestow

Why are the hands of fate so cruel
Her with my life I would enfold
Her with my treasures richly bless
So why cruel fate our happiness withhold

Why are the hands of fate so cruel
What is it they would measure
With every blow strength ebbs away
And this battered heart grows weaker

Why are the hands of fate so cruel
Forced me to live with so much hurt
Bade me

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Ugly

by *ccoolchic1, Dec 9, 2009, 3:53:24 PM
Literature / Poetry / Romantic / Teen / Free Verse

My face is ugly
My hair is messy
My nose is big
My finger nails are short
My arms are chubby
And I weigh more than I should.

I'm insecure and just want someone to love, but I know no one will ever love me. How could someone love me? I'm too hideous.

A lot of these things go through her head every day.
I watch her as she goes through the halls alone and sad.
I want to be there for her.
To hold her and tell her I love her.
To tell her she's the most beautiful girl I ever met.

Her face is beautiful
Her hair is gorgeous, especially when it blows in the wind
Her nose is perfect, cute as a button
Her black finger nails are perfect the way they are
Her arms look just like any other person's; I still want to hug around them either way
I don't care how much she weighs she'll still look beautiful in my eyes

From a Guy's P.O.V

Uglyby *ccoolchic1

Literature / Poetry / Romantic / Teen / Free Verse

Just wanted to write this to inform insecure people that you might think you’re ugly, but someone out there might think you’re the most beautiful person they’ve met. I started this out about me being insecure about myself. ._. but realized that seems dumb XD so I changed it around & I felt better about myself afterwards. :]

~mckenziemcmaisey May 10, 2013 New member Hobbyist Artist

IM THE FREAKING UGLIEST PERSON IN THIS FREAKING MESSED UP WORLD!!!!

*ccoolchic1 May 14, 2013 Student Writer

ha no you're not. we all have our insecurities, but our personalities make us most beautiful

~mckenziemcmaisey May 15, 2013 New member Hobbyist Artist

maybe

~getyourhardcoreonxx Mar 11, 2012 Student Traditional Artist

Meh. I try to feel this way everyday and it never works, >.<

*ccoolchic1 Mar 21, 2012 Student Writer

Yes but it gets better trust me. :3 it took me a couple years. >.<

~getyourhardcoreonxx Mar 21, 2012 Student Traditional Artist

Ah. I'm still in the process.

~demonglittercritter Sep 14, 2011 Hobbyist Digital Artist

I've done that before!

Thank you for doing your part to make a difference.
There is no such thing as ugly.

*ccoolchic1 Sep 14, 2011 Student Writer

Aw thanks & it's true. I used to look so down on myself & now I look up & I think it's so much better for me to just be confident. :]

~demonglittercritter Sep 14, 2011 Hobbyist Digital Artist

~zeolee Aug 19, 2011

sorry even me i didn't get my pre writing hhh
i mean you make me love the person who you are describing
but regarding the weight. i don't agree with u .. every one can lose his weight. so it's something we can control it. (not like the face, hair, nose, face, & bla bla bla)
and for me i don't like to be with someone>> overweight ...
btw, u r most welcome ^^

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